You see, right now I'm looking for work. This after having been (and currently still being) a full-time student for, well, somewhat longer than I'd originally intended. For a number of reasons I am looking to hopefully finish off the degree as a part-time student, with most of those reasons having to do with money (or, I suppose, the lack thereof) to some degree. And so I find myself looking for full-time work which is presently the source of no small amount of trepidation.
I suppose that looking for work is seldom (maybe never) a stress-free affair. While I can't rule out that somebody somewhere might actually enjoy going through interviews, I suspect that such people are few and far between and are perhaps a bit touched. So a certain amount of stress and jitters is probably a normal part of the job hunt. That said, I have some concerns that seem like they amplify these feelings:
- This current detour through grad school that I've been taking for longer than intended means I've also been out of the workforce for several years. While I do have some work experience gained between degrees I nevertheless worry that this break from "real" work puts me at a disadvantage.
- Still not being done the current degree with the (I feel) real possibility that I may simply decide to walk away from it means that I basically have nothing to show for the past several years (well, nothing concrete, anyway) which I again worry puts me at a disadvantage.
- I feel like I probably suffer from Impostor Syndrome which certainly doesn't help to alleviate any concerns I have.
- I seem to have a general lack of confidence (perhaps exacerbated by the fact that I'm still a student at a point in my life when I feel I really shouldn't be anymore)
At the end of the day, I don't know that airing these things on the interwebs does much good, but it is what it is (whatever that means). I'll muddle through things as best I can and as long as I keep looking and trying I imagine something will turn up sooner or later, though hopefully sooner rather than later.
That is all for now. I hope the next post will be more light hearted. Perhaps I'll get around to writing about one of those programming projects I keep meaning to write about.
Freak Out,
-TFitC
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